Well, we have some more good news! We had our 2nd ultrasound with the OB. There is actually something in that black hole! LOL! (more…)
Sad update July 17, 2009
I sadly update that we have lost another baby. On 7/9/09 my OB called to report that my HCG levels dropped down to 20 and then I ended up bleeding not too long after the phone call from my OB. We are heartbroken once again. Wondering when we’ll get our big break and be able to have a living child to brighten our days. My OB said that we are able to try again right away because I was only 5 weeks along, but I think with the packing and the moving and the craziness associated with the military, we are going to wait until we are settled in and the stress goes down. I know that JB is really torn up over this. He just opened up about Jayden and then this hits and its hitting him all at once. 😦 I just want to hug him but he’s gone for two weeks for annual training. So send some prayers his way.
That’s all I have for today – I’ll update later.
KB
*Mommy to two angels in heaven*
Finally Pregnant Again! July 6, 2009
That’s right, we are finally pregnant again. It’s been 5 months of trying since we lost our precious angel. And while no baby will ever replace our sweet baby Jayden, I’m comforted to say that this new baby has his/her guardian angel of their own. I know Jayden will be watching over them and taking care of them and JB and I. (more…)
Happy Birthday to me! June 21, 2009
We’ll yesterday was my birthday and I couldn’t of asked for a better day. (more…)
I’m back again! May 1, 2009
Alright I guess I need to update a little bit. I’ve been absent for a week. (more…)
::I sent this to my boss:: April 4, 2009
20 Things parents of Angels wish you would remember
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WOW! a thankyou is on order!! April 3, 2009
Okay. The day I signed up for the march for dimes :: march for babies walk, I set our team goal to $300, thinking that we would maybe it $150 atleast. You all are amazing. WE HIT $475!!!!!
status: one rough day after another :: bother me only if it’s imprtant April 1, 2009
Title say much? Like I said one after another. 3 months later I’m still a mess and sadly I envision me like this years to come. Although I do pray it gets the least bit easier any day now.
maternal/fetal specialist March 24, 2009
Well we had our first (of many) appointments with our maternal/fetal specialist. Dr. S was great. You can tell that he knows what he is doing. (Thank goodness!!) (more…)
getaway…weekend! March 22, 2009
Well, this last weekend we decided to drive to Effingham, Illinois. (Yes that’s actually the name!) (more…)
KateCares Tests Results March 20, 2009
Well it’s been three months since I delivered Jayden and we finally have our report back from a stillbirth program called Kate Cares…. (more…)
March of Dimes :: Team JaydenHenryBoone
Josh and I have decided to walk in the March of dimes, March for babies walk on April 26, 2009 in Indianapolis. We have created Team JaydenHenryBoone in memory of our son, Jayden, who was born sleeping on 12/30/2008. We hope to reach our goal in donations and get friends and family to join in our walk.
DrillWeekend. February 21, 2009
Lovely military. they leave me sitting at home alone this weekend while they take away my soldier. But I’m doing “okay”. Hanging in there I suppose you could say.
Dare to Love? February 14, 2009
Happy Valentines day! JB and I went to his church for a marriage enrichment night. We absolutely loved it.
I’m back… stumbling. February 10, 2009
Well it’s been awhile since I blogged. I just couldn’t bring myself to writing. As much as it helps for me to put my feelings down on…. online… I also have a hard time getting through the actual writing process due to tears making a very blurry screen. It doesn’t work so well… and neither do computers getting wet, even from the smallest of tears. (more…)
A First of many “would have been” Firsts… January 28, 2009
Most parents are celebrating happy firsts with their child. A First smile, a first tooth, a first christmas, a first birthday. Now while everyone else is celebrating happy firsts… mine are not so happy. We get to celebrate “a month ago today we found out his heart stopped” and “He would be one month old today” and “this would of been his first christmas”.
Sleep is overrated… January 22, 2009
…Or so I thought. Ever since we found out Jayden’s heart had stopped (3.5 weeks ago) I have not been able to sleep.
.virtual.friends.
Well honestly, I never thought I’d find myself in this position. But I can honestly say that I have some absolutely amazing online friends.
…..i have no title…. January 21, 2009
Bear with me, I’m having a rough day.
I’ve had a few really good days lately, and I guess that always falls back on one really bad day.
What makes a Mother January 19, 2009
I closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard Him say, A Mother has a baby. This we know is true. But God can you be a Mother when your baby’s not with you? “Yes you can!”, He replied with confidence in His voice, “I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.
crap…i need to keep my mouth shut! January 18, 2009
So someone apologized to me today for their away status and for hurting my feelings.
I kinda feel like a shit head.
..Stupid.Flowers.. January 15, 2009
At this point, I am not even sure why I ever bugged JB to ever buy me flowers?!
Our house has seemed like a florist since Jayden’s service. All the flowers were beautiful, they meant so much to us. And at first, I was trying to keep them all alive… then all the fresh cuts were dying and even with watering I’m having trouble with the planters…
Angels in disguise January 14, 2009
I did not realize just how common a miscarriage or stillbirth is. Unfortunately, I’ve met a ton of people who are going through the same thing I am. It’s never fair for parents to go through this and the question asked: “why bad things happen to good people?”
The days slowly go by… January 8, 2009
I feel like my world had come to a hault. While the rest of the world is going about their business, mine just can’t seem to stop standing still. I feel like the purpose of my life has just been ripped out from underneath me. The one thing I wanted more than anything in the world is to be a mother. To have a baby, to watch them grow, to help them along the way. I know that I will have this chance again, hopefully, but I am ready now.
The best and worst day of my life. January 7, 2009
At 39 weeks pregnant – you are not thinking about what could go wrong. You are thinking about what it’s going to be like to hold your precious new child in your arms for the first time. To hear them cry, for them to look you in the eye, to know that they count on everything that you do.
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