14 weeks down! Only…. 24 weeks to go! Baby is doing wonderful! I had my “fetal heartbeat tone” check on monday. Heartbeat was about an inch-inch and a half under my belly button! S/he is growing wonderfully. The Heartbeat was 157 beats per minute! Mom went with me since JB couldn’t make it. (THANKS MOM!) And I’m doing pretty good too. (more…)
13 weeks!! October 8, 2009
Yup another week down!! A week or so ago my OB had trouble finding the heartbeat and had to push in and it was way down by my pubic bone. Yesterday I got out my doppler and I found the heartbeat immediately and I also got it one inch below my belly button! (more…)
12 weeks 2 day – A Walk to remember October 3, 2009
We had our annual “A Walk to Remember” walk through st. francis hopsital today. It was a good day even though it was chilly! All the babies names were read allowed, then we did a balloon release which was amazing! and I got a mum plant for my front porch. It was very enjoyable even though there were quite a few tears! (more…)
6 weeks 6 days *magical* August 26, 2009
Well, we have some more good news! We had our 2nd ultrasound with the OB. There is actually something in that black hole! LOL! (more…)
Update & Prayers Please July 8, 2009
I would like to say thank you to all of you who replied to my post about being PG! We are truely excited and scared like no other! We do need some prayers though…. (more…)
Happy Birthday to me! June 21, 2009
We’ll yesterday was my birthday and I couldn’t of asked for a better day. (more…)
March for Babies WE HIT $999! April 22, 2009
Once again, my wonderful support system has pulled through! Our March of Dimes, March for Babies Team has hit $999! Only one dollar away from $1000!!! I am absolutely thrilled and another huge thank you goes out. (and yes, this has set me in to a burst of tears… i’ve been so emotional lately!) (more…)
::I sent this to my boss:: April 4, 2009
20 Things parents of Angels wish you would remember
WOW! a thankyou is on order!! April 3, 2009
Okay. The day I signed up for the march for dimes :: march for babies walk, I set our team goal to $300, thinking that we would maybe it $150 atleast. You all are amazing. WE HIT $475!!!!!
Title say much? Like I said one after another. 3 months later I’m still a mess and sadly I envision me like this years to come. Although I do pray it gets the least bit easier any day now.
CRUISE!!! March 25, 2009
Man, 3 posts in a roll!!
So Josh and I are taking a VACATION!! (more…)
Josh and I have decided to walk in the March of dimes, March for babies walk on April 26, 2009 in Indianapolis. We have created Team JaydenHenryBoone in memory of our son, Jayden, who was born sleeping on 12/30/2008. We hope to reach our goal in donations and get friends and family to join in our walk.
DrillWeekend. February 21, 2009
Lovely military. they leave me sitting at home alone this weekend while they take away my soldier. But I’m doing “okay”. Hanging in there I suppose you could say.
Dare to Love? February 14, 2009
Happy Valentines day! JB and I went to his church for a marriage enrichment night. We absolutely loved it.
I’m back… stumbling. February 10, 2009
Well it’s been awhile since I blogged. I just couldn’t bring myself to writing. As much as it helps for me to put my feelings down on…. online… I also have a hard time getting through the actual writing process due to tears making a very blurry screen. It doesn’t work so well… and neither do computers getting wet, even from the smallest of tears. (more…)
A First of many “would have been” Firsts… January 28, 2009
Most parents are celebrating happy firsts with their child. A First smile, a first tooth, a first christmas, a first birthday. Now while everyone else is celebrating happy firsts… mine are not so happy. We get to celebrate “a month ago today we found out his heart stopped” and “He would be one month old today” and “this would of been his first christmas”.
Sleep is overrated… January 22, 2009
…Or so I thought. Ever since we found out Jayden’s heart had stopped (3.5 weeks ago) I have not been able to sleep.
Well honestly, I never thought I’d find myself in this position. But I can honestly say that I have some absolutely amazing online friends.
…..i have no title…. January 21, 2009
Bear with me, I’m having a rough day.
I’ve had a few really good days lately, and I guess that always falls back on one really bad day.
What makes a Mother January 19, 2009
I closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard Him say, A Mother has a baby. This we know is true. But God can you be a Mother when your baby’s not with you? “Yes you can!”, He replied with confidence in His voice, “I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.
crap…i need to keep my mouth shut! January 18, 2009
So someone apologized to me today for their away status and for hurting my feelings.
I kinda feel like a shit head.
..Stupid.Flowers.. January 15, 2009
At this point, I am not even sure why I ever bugged JB to ever buy me flowers?!
Our house has seemed like a florist since Jayden’s service. All the flowers were beautiful, they meant so much to us. And at first, I was trying to keep them all alive… then all the fresh cuts were dying and even with watering I’m having trouble with the planters…
Angels in disguise January 14, 2009
I did not realize just how common a miscarriage or stillbirth is. Unfortunately, I’ve met a ton of people who are going through the same thing I am. It’s never fair for parents to go through this and the question asked: “why bad things happen to good people?”
The days slowly go by… January 8, 2009
I feel like my world had come to a hault. While the rest of the world is going about their business, mine just can’t seem to stop standing still. I feel like the purpose of my life has just been ripped out from underneath me. The one thing I wanted more than anything in the world is to be a mother. To have a baby, to watch them grow, to help them along the way. I know that I will have this chance again, hopefully, but I am ready now.
The best and worst day of my life. January 7, 2009
At 39 weeks pregnant – you are not thinking about what could go wrong. You are thinking about what it’s going to be like to hold your precious new child in your arms for the first time. To hear them cry, for them to look you in the eye, to know that they count on everything that you do.