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Mommy to an angel

14 weeks October 15, 2009

14 weeks down! Only…. 24 weeks to go! Baby is doing wonderful! I had my “fetal heartbeat tone” check on monday. Heartbeat was about an inch-inch and a half under my belly button! S/he is growing wonderfully. The Heartbeat was 157 beats per minute! Mom went with me since JB couldn’t make it. (THANKS MOM!)  And I’m doing pretty good too. (more…)

 

13 weeks!! October 8, 2009

Yup another week down!! A week or so ago my OB had trouble finding the heartbeat and had to push in and it was way down by my pubic bone. Yesterday I got out my doppler and I found the heartbeat immediately and I also got it one inch below my belly button! (more…)

 

12 weeks 2 day – A Walk to remember October 3, 2009

We had our annual “A Walk to Remember” walk through st. francis hopsital today. It was a good day even though it was chilly! All the babies names were read allowed, then we did a balloon release which was amazing! and I got a mum plant for my front porch. It was very enjoyable even though there were quite a few tears! (more…)

 

6 weeks 6 days *magical* August 26, 2009

Well, we have some more good news! We had our 2nd ultrasound with the OB. There is actually something in that black hole! LOL! (more…)

 

My brain is where? July 19, 2009

So, yes we lost another baby. We are heartbroken. And my brain is just going in sane. I feel as if I’m about to lose it. It doesn’t help that JB is gone for two weeks with military training. He’s not having the best of times emotionally either. How could this of happened to us again? Why do we get the crappy end of the stick? I mean seriously, have we not been through enough already?? (more…)

 

Sad update July 17, 2009

I sadly update that we have lost another baby. On 7/9/09 my OB called to report that my HCG levels dropped down to 20 and then I ended up bleeding not too long after the phone call from my OB. We are heartbroken once again. Wondering when we’ll get our big break and be able to have a living child to brighten our days. My OB said that we are able to try again right away because I was only 5 weeks along, but I think with the packing and the moving and the craziness associated with the military, we are going to wait until we are settled in and the stress goes down. I know that JB is really torn up over this. He just opened up about Jayden and then this hits and its hitting him all at once. 😦 I just want to hug him but he’s gone for two weeks for annual training. So send some prayers his way.

That’s all I have for today – I’ll update later.
KB
*Mommy to two angels in heaven*

 

Update & Prayers Please July 8, 2009

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I would like to say thank you to all of you who replied to my post about being PG! We are truely excited and scared like no other! We do need some prayers though…. (more…)

 

Finally Pregnant Again! July 6, 2009

That’s right, we are finally pregnant again. It’s been 5 months of trying since we lost our precious angel. And while no baby will ever replace our sweet baby Jayden, I’m comforted to say that this new baby has his/her guardian angel of their own. I know Jayden will be watching over them and taking care of them and JB and I. (more…)

 

Happy Birthday to me! June 21, 2009

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We’ll yesterday was my birthday and I couldn’t of asked for a better day. (more…)

 

HERE! May 19, 2009

Alright, so I’m back in action. The vacation was wonderful but I am now home and getting back into a routine. I am now officially counting down until my 22nd birthday (32 days) and until we head to vegas for Kristin (sister) & Jason’s wedding (86 days)!

We are also trying to figure out a time to take a trip to Canada to meet up with our new canadian friends we met on the cruise 🙂 So that should be in the near future too!

Life is sort of back to normal.  Mother’s day went better than I had expected although all we did was sleep in an airport – but that was perfectly fine with me. Not much to remind me which day it was except for the few lovely text messages (thank you!!) and a screaming newborn in front of us on the plane (figures right?)

Mom came over and helped me clean  the house this weekend! It was much needed since the the friends, who were staying with us until they found a place, found a place to call home. Dad fixed the toilet and messed with the water heater and mom and I cleaned/mowed the grass… okay mom did that – I admit i’ve never touched a lawn mower in my life – nor do I plan to. I consider that JOSH’S chore (except when mom comes to do it lol). I don’t like getting dirty with grass stains.

Anyway, JB is in Nashville tomorrow so I’ll be working and then starting to tear in to my big black whole. (AKA my office).  I get all of our bills via e-mail so the fact that I also get paper mail doesn’t quite work for me. I have a HUGE pile of mail that just needs to be shredded but our poor shredder can only handle 3 pages at a time – so it takes quite a while to do. I also need to clean out everything in the office because we are planning on re-doing my office!! YAY! making it into an official craft space and craft space alone. My sewing machine will finally have a place of it’s own on an uncrowded desk and plenty of storage and shelving with room to grow!

Emotionally, things have been good. More good days than bad are starting to come, though those bad days can sure catch you off guard! TTC is getting frustrating. I know 3 months is nothing to a lot of people who try for years. But for me, it seems like an eternity. My brain thinks I should be pg 3 months ago and my heart knows i should already have a baby in my arms. So that on top of trying is just beyond my emotional control some days. I’m crossing my fingers as this week was “the week” particularly yesterday and today. JB left for Nashville today though so now it’s the waiting period again. This month I have not charted temps and fluids because I find myself to get overly anxious and stressed. So this month I’ve just stuck to peed on a stick (I’m addicted lol) and using the fertility monitor which tells you what day your fertile. And I have noticed a lot less stress. So we’ll see…. Check back in 10 +/- days for that result. 

JB is good. Back to work and traveling for the military. He LOVED the cruise and we are ready to plan our next cruise vacation! Hopefully to Bahamas/eastern Caribbean! 

Well back to work! 

xo, KB

 

I’m back again! May 1, 2009

Alright I guess I need to update a little bit. I’ve been absent for a week. (more…)

 

March for Babies WE HIT $999! April 22, 2009

Once again, my wonderful support system has pulled through! Our March of Dimes, March for Babies Team has hit $999! Only one dollar away from $1000!!! I am absolutely thrilled and another huge thank you goes out.  (and yes, this has set me in to a burst of tears… i’ve been so emotional lately!) (more…)

 

Seriously? April 18, 2009

Well once again these last few days have been horrible. We got our final blood test result back. (more…)

 

::I sent this to my boss:: April 4, 2009

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20 Things parents of Angels wish you would remember
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WOW! a thankyou is on order!! April 3, 2009

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Okay. The day I signed up for the march for dimes :: march for babies walk, I set our team goal to $300, thinking that we would maybe it $150 atleast. You all are amazing. WE HIT $475!!!!!

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status: one rough day after another :: bother me only if it’s imprtant April 1, 2009

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Title say much? Like I said one after another. 3 months later I’m still a mess and sadly I envision me like this years to come. Although I do pray it gets the least bit easier any day now.

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CRUISE!!! March 25, 2009

Man, 3 posts in a roll!!

So Josh and I are taking a VACATION!! (more…)

 

maternal/fetal specialist March 24, 2009

Well we had our first (of many) appointments with our maternal/fetal specialist. Dr. S was great. You can tell that he knows what he is doing. (Thank goodness!!) (more…)

 

KateCares Tests Results March 20, 2009

Well it’s been three months since I delivered Jayden and we finally have our report back from a stillbirth program called Kate Cares…. (more…)

 

In Memory of JHB ^i^ March 12, 2009

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Josh and I have been thinking and thinking about what to do for Jayden’s first birthday. (more…)

 

.Test.Results. February 27, 2009

We got our re-test of the blood clotting disorder back

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March of Dimes :: Team JaydenHenryBoone

Josh and I have decided to walk in the March of dimes, March for babies walk on April 26, 2009 in Indianapolis. We have created Team JaydenHenryBoone in memory of our son, Jayden, who was born sleeping on 12/30/2008. We hope to reach our goal in donations and get friends and family to join in our walk.

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DrillWeekend. February 21, 2009

Lovely military. they leave me sitting at home alone this weekend while they take away my soldier.  But I’m doing “okay”. Hanging in there I suppose you could say.

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Dare to Love? February 14, 2009

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Happy Valentines day! JB and I went to his church for a marriage enrichment night. We absolutely loved it.

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I’m back… stumbling. February 10, 2009

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Well it’s been awhile since I blogged. I just couldn’t bring myself to writing. As much as it helps for me to put my feelings down on…. online… I also have a hard time getting through the actual writing process due to tears making a very blurry screen. It doesn’t work so well… and neither do computers getting wet, even from the smallest of tears. (more…)

 

A First of many “would have been” Firsts… January 28, 2009

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Most parents are celebrating happy firsts with their child. A First smile, a first tooth, a first christmas, a first birthday. Now while everyone else is celebrating happy firsts… mine are not so happy. We get to celebrate “a month ago today we found out his heart stopped” and “He would be one month old today” and “this would of been his first christmas”.

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Sleep is overrated… January 22, 2009

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…Or so I thought. Ever since we found out Jayden’s heart had stopped (3.5 weeks ago) I have not been able to sleep.

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.virtual.friends.

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Well honestly, I never thought I’d find myself in this position. But I can honestly say that I have some absolutely amazing online friends.

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…..i have no title…. January 21, 2009

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Bear with me, I’m having a rough day.

I’ve had a few really good days lately, and I guess that always falls back on one really bad day.

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What makes a Mother January 19, 2009

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I closed my eyes and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard Him say, A Mother has a baby. This we know is true. But God can you be a Mother when your baby’s not with you? “Yes you can!”, He replied with confidence in His voice, “I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.

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crap…i need to keep my mouth shut! January 18, 2009

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So someone apologized to me today for their away status and for hurting my feelings.

I kinda feel like a shit head.

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..Stupid.Flowers.. January 15, 2009

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At this point, I am not even sure why I ever bugged JB to ever buy me flowers?!

Our house has seemed like a florist since Jayden’s service. All the flowers were beautiful, they meant so much to us. And at first, I was trying to keep them all alive… then all the fresh cuts were dying and even with watering I’m having trouble with the planters…

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Angels in disguise January 14, 2009

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I did not realize just how common a miscarriage or stillbirth is. Unfortunately, I’ve met a ton of people who are going through the same thing I am. It’s never fair for parents to go through this and the question asked: “why bad things happen to good people?”

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Jayden Henry Boone (pictures) January 12, 2009

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Jayden Henry Boone (12.30.08)
 

The days slowly go by… January 8, 2009

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I feel like my world had come to a hault. While the rest of the world is going about their business, mine just can’t seem to stop standing still. I feel like the purpose of my life has just been ripped out from underneath me. The one thing I wanted more than anything in the world is to be a mother. To have a baby, to watch them grow, to help them along the way. I know that I will have this chance again, hopefully, but I am ready now.

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The best and worst day of my life. January 7, 2009

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At 39 weeks pregnant – you are not thinking about what could go wrong. You are thinking about what it’s going to be like to hold your precious new child in your arms for the first time. To hear them cry, for them to look you in the eye, to know that they count on everything that you do.

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